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So, I think we have reached that point where we can really start to do some introspective reflection.
Usually it takes a bit longer, but this year has brought with it a curious sense of urgency, and although I would usually like you to wade through a bit more of your own thoughts before we got to this point, I feel confident that you guys are ready to take the plunge into some in-depth blog questions. So, here we go!
Although I cannot make you do this, I would like you to minimize all distractions while you think about this blog. Exercise your right to have "You" time; put away your cell phones or video game remotes and for the sake of all that's holy--close any and all social media apps. Just you, your computer, and your thoughts.
No man is an island, right? Have you ever heard that? John Donne, prolific 16th Century writer, said it. It essentially means that people do not exist in a vacuum, cut off from the world and the people in it; that people need other people if, for nothing else, to figure themselves out. Personally, I'm on the fence about whether or not this is true, but I suspect it probably is. Here's an example.
Every day, you wake up, go through your morning rituals, come to school, do your thing(s), go home, go through your evening rituals and then go to bed.
There are obviously some variations to this routine from time to time, and I am not trying to downplay your life in any way by making it sound mundane. What I am saying is, that through all of this, these daily activities, rituals and routines other people interact with you.
They talk to you, refer to you, question you, yell at you, soothe you, talk about you, defer to you or, in some cases, though hopefully not many, ignore you completely. The point is, they KNOW who you are, at least enough to do one or more of the previous things.
But, when you stop to think about it, do they really know? And, more importantly, do YOU?
Now, here comes the hard part...
Beyond names, job titles or academic accomplishments, beyond labels given to you by yourself or by others, beyond traits and hobbies and virtues... who are you? Who are you inside? If you had to write your name, and then your definition, what would it say?
I am a contradiction. When you’re reading this, don’t think about it too much...I am literally just a contradiction. I am the girl who loves to love, but has been told that I am so hard to love. I am the girl who wants to help anyone, and everyone with their problems, but is the first person to disregard anyone who wants to help me. I love christmas, but absolutely hate the winter, (typical). I tell everyone that they could trust me with their life, but I wouldn’t dare trust more than two souls with mine. I tell everyone it’s important to love themselves, when I, have trouble loving myself. I consider myself to be one of the nicest people out there, but also a cold hearted bitch if you ever cross me. I’m such a family person, yet I refuse to speak my own father. I’m scared of growing up, but I find myself constantly craving the future. I am in love with the beach, yet I live in freakin’ Mays Landing! (again, typical). I love school, but dread doing actual school work…(I feel like I speak for about 95% of the population on this one). I love giving my friends, or anyone really, advice, but I fail to even take my own. Now, I don’t do any of this on purpose, it’s just who I am, or at least it’s who I am before I decide to finally stop being so “childish”, or shallow, or finally allowing myself bring the wall I have, down. I feel like all of these traits are something that can become temporary, and as I grow up, I will be able to fix some of the things that obviously need some changing. I’m still considered a “kid” and I have a lot of growing up to do, but right now, I am weird, I am confusing, I am messy, I am a contradiction.
ReplyDeleteI am mysterious. When people think of me, there's often a variety of things that come to mind; a bitch, nice, cool, funny, shy, crazy, outspoken, confident. The list could go on and on. But a lot of those things really aren't me. A lot of people could list me as confusing because they could never understand me. And it's true. Sometimes I can't understand myself. I could come off as a complete bitch, but yet I am so sensitive. My feelings change so fast, it's crazy... One minute I could be so close to someone and then the next day they'll just get on my nerves and I'll never know speak to them again. Being my friend isn't easy, it's basically keeping up with so many different features of mine. I come off as the shy girl so many times, but I have been the person getting the most attention at parties. Sometimes I want to be different and other times I want to fit in with everyone else. Coming up with a simple definition for Josselyn Gonzalez is not that easy, I am complex and confusing, which in a way makes me mysterious. Because no one ever knows what's on my mind.
ReplyDeleteI am the girl that’s always laughing and smiling even if i'm completely broken in the inside. Every year I always get asked why am I always so happy or why do I laugh so much and honestly the truth is I don't know. I don’t like letting people know i'm upset because I rather deal with it myself. I don’t feel the need to bother anybody with my issues because everyone has their own problems that they’re dealing with. Not saying I don’t talk to anybody about anything, but I won't ever share serious issues i’m dealing with, only normal stuff like boys, school, or people. I always tell people i'm here for them and that they call trust me with anything because I feel good knowing I helped someone get something off their chest, but there isn't a person I tell EVERYTHING to no matter how close I am to them. My friends know i’m always ranting about something, but like I said it's nothing serious. For me, some things are just meant for me to deal with myself.I don’t like someone constantly asking me if i'm fine so before they ask me i’ll act like i'm completely fine and happy even if that’s not the case. I'm not depressed or anything because I am happy most of the time, but days where I am upset, you’ll never see me crying unless i'm overreacting which I definitely do. I'm also the person that’ll act like I don't care about something, but deep down that’s the thing that’ll be bothering me the most. I think i’ve gotten so good at pretending I don’t care about something or pretending to be happy that nobody really realizes I care or that i’m upset which I like so I don't get sympathy from people. Not sure if there’s a certain word for how I am, but this is how I am.
ReplyDeleteI would be a quiet observer. No matter how hard I try to break my quietness I'm still ultimately quiet. So with my quietness brought me to be observant because I'm either curious or borderline nosy when it come to other people socializing. Everyday in every place I walk in I always take in what I see and hear.People sometimes notice me but I simply dismiss them and act like I wasn't doing anything. But even with my somewhat cold hearted there is one other part of me, compassion and kindness. Whenever I see anyone who had a bad day or time I always feel sorry for them. If I ever I had a friend who's feeling down and need to cheer up or needs to tell a secret I'm that guy. I really care for people and sometimes strangers. Although I feel all of these things I have mention I also bottle them up. And I mean I bottle almost everything up. Whenever I feel sad or upset I hide it. But in doing so will leave me depressed for a bit. So me, I'm a complete mess of caring and quiet observations but caring nevertheless.
ReplyDeleteTo be honest, this question made me look within myself for an answer that should have been on the surface. If I had to describe myself, I would say that I am completely unpredictable. No matter how hard a stereotypes or regulations try to shape who I am, it just won't work. I am who I am, and noting can change that. I remember being "smart" when I wasn't supposed to be, and stupid and forgetful when I need my intelligence the most. I remember being athletic and agile when playing a friendly sport, but when it came to school sports, my stamina and speed would fly out the window. I remember being wise in the wrong moments (so it was received as sarcasm), and being a complete fool when people depended on my advice the most. I mean, sometimes, my brain would get it right and I would do what I was supposed to do at the right time. I am proud of my unpredictable personality.
ReplyDeleteSometimes, if I was real lucky, being unpredictable has worked in my favor. It has gotten me out of trouble, landed me great opportunities, and even created lasting friendships. I don't mind that it gets me in tough spots, because it usually makes up for it in the long run. I love being unpredictable.
This is a hard question to answer. Of course I can go into detail about who I really am but that seems like it would be too extra or chessey. So if I were to define myself, I'd say that I am a person who cares. I can't be whatever so you say I can be because I have to be what I want to be. And when you walk around the hallways and see all the boys dressed with their pants down to their thighs and them throwing up gang signs, which sums up half of the freshman population, I am not like that. I don't listen to trap music and call girls expletives so heavily, I am simply a shoulder someone can always lean on. I would even admit sometimes, I don't agree with what a boy's perspective is of something because I like to see it from all angles. I'd like to know someone, care for them and help them out in anyway I can because I am a very detailed guy and that's simply who I am. Ive grown living only with my mom and sister so I may not truly know how a boy feels when it comes to who they truly are. But then again, I can say the same for any girl. Either way, this is who I am and not everyone agrees with my actions, but in the end, even if its just one person, I want to be someone's mensch, their angel. To put a smile on somebody's face. I want to be the guy that cares.
ReplyDeleteIf I had to describe myself I would say I am very observant. I like to be quiet most of my life and observe the many things that go on in my life. I observe my family, friends, and everything that goes on in my life. I like to analyze and learn from these moments in my life for future reference. My Dad always gave me insight and useful information to help me make a mind of my own to analyze things my self. This is the only reason I can pick out on why I do this in life and will continue to do this in the future. This is something I have done for years but never really noticed it until later in about freshman year of high school. My sister really gave me notice of this and I cherish what I do. Although I do love observing, it does create a problem when it comes to speaking up for certain things in life. Being observant has made my shyness increase over the years which is something I want to break out of. I want to understand and know many things in life but I also am afraid to speak my mind all the time. I am afraid sometimes that people will resent me for what I believe in because I spoke my mind too much. But I should get over this one day understanding that I shouldn't care what other people think. But when people ask me questions like who I am going to vote for in the election are the things that make me scared to answer truthfully. I like to hear other peoples opinions and match them up with mine but I will not talk to them about unless you are really close to me. I don't like to talk about politics with other people anyway because I feel it can ruin friendships most of the time unless its my dad. I have grown to speak more often but am still shy in certain areas and that is just who I am in life. This shyness has led me to not want to go out and party a lot but want to stay home and play video games with my friends. But I am happy with who I am today and don't plan on changing myself completely in the future.
ReplyDeleteThis assignment was harder than I thought it would be, especially if I’m not sure who I am just yet. I know I’m self-conscious, timid at times and I definitely fear a lot of things. But on top of all of this, I can say that I am very grateful. The past few years, I’ve experienced a lot of ups and downs. One of my major downs was the loss of a friend and a teammate. Losing a person like her just goes to show that you shouldn’t take anything for granted. She was a beautiful soul who whenever you saw her, had the biggest smile on her face. She always worked and played as hard as she could and always gave it her all. As the days progressed without her, I began realizing how grateful I am to have what I have. I have loving, hard-working parents that keep a roof over my head and make sure that I’m well taken care of. I’m grateful for everyone in my life, whether its family or friends, who love and support me. I’m grateful to have the ability to play soccer and set goals for my future. I’m grateful for everyone and everything in my life. So, when asked who I am, I’m someone who will try and live each day to its fullest, reach for goals that may seem unattainable and be forever grateful to be living with what I’m surrounded by.
ReplyDeleteI'm the kid that doesn't like going out on Friday nights, and would rather be at home playing Xbox and listening to music all alone without a care in the world. I grew up in an isolated manner, and some things never changed. I back away from relationships and becoming close with people, because I know I don't need them, and I can't imagine someone loving me more than I love myself (selfish I know). At the same time however, I'll fight tooth and nail for anybody, if I think they deserve more than what they're getting. I'm fearless. I've been through too many impossible situations to understand fear. Mentally, You cannot and will not be able to break me. I do whatever pleases me, and do not follow a code, morals, an agenda, or anything between. I do what I want, and how I want. In ways, I'm numb to any mental pain I have, but I empathize for those around me. My main goal is to touch the lives of the people I meet in a positive way, and if that's all I do with my life, I'd be happy. People see me as careless, a loner, distant, and probably annoying due to my distant sense of humor. However, shocker, I don't really care. I know what I am, and I have nothing to prove to anybody. I'm blessed to live this life, and peoples opinions won't bring me down. At the end of the day, I'm best while alone. No influence on my decisions, no poison to my lifestyle, and most importantly, nobody to let me down. Usually when people act like I do, they've been let down, or abandoned by somebody. I'm the opposite. I've gone through a lot with absolutley nobody at my side. I've never loved somebody. I'm heartless, and I'm okay with that. I don't need somebody to walk with me, because I've gone through hell alone, and made it out perfectly fine. I'm grateful for the life I have, and nothing can ever take that away from me
ReplyDeleteDay by day we pass strangers and familiar faces everywhere we go, and a boatload of information comes rushing through our mind, but the only thing we subject a person to is your personal beliefs and your personal thoughts. You never truly know another person because, simply, you are not them. Nobody knows me. When people think of Kelsey Andrus, they think of a competitive student, and athlete. They aren’t wrong, I am probably the most competitive person that I’ll ever meet, but what those strangers and friendly faces don’t see is the method to all my madness. When I was younger all I ever knew was that I wanted to be first and win awards, but as I got older I found the reason that I’m like this. Life is short. People come and go everyday. Family members will always be in your heart and in your memories, but that's it. The thought of people that have moved on stay there, in own family heritage. People who have made a difference in this world like Martin Luther King Jr. or celebrities like Robin Williams will always be remembered, they will forever be in history books or shown on TV, they will never fade away. People don’t know that I am afraid of fading away. I know what it sounds like, but you're wrong. In no way shape or form do I want to become some type of celebrity, I just want to make a difference in this world. I want to be able to say I helped or influenced people. I want to inspire people. I want to be remembered. I don’t want to leave this world knowing that only a small portion of this world, specifically in South Jersey, knows my name. I don’t want leave this world like the millions of others, gone without a name. People see me as the competitive nerd, or fockey queen, or even a competitive annoying junior in the hallways. I see myself as working to my goal. People don’t know, but everyday I leave another footprint for my name, and eventually, one day I’ll be able to prove it.
ReplyDeleteI am an open book. By that, I mean that I am openly crazy. I am openly honest. I am openly assertive. I am openly unbiased and unjudgmental. I welcome all with open arms and an open mind. I am an open book.
ReplyDeleteI've spent my entire life trying to fit in. Trying to be a different person for different crowds, and trying to be accepted. I've spent countless hours of
my life wondering why I wasn't good enough, or why I couldn't compete with anyone in any aspect. I spent so many nights trying to figure out what I was doing wrong. And it's funny that you said that we find ourselves through the help of others, because I spent all those nights alone.
Through this solitude, I realized exactly what I was doing wrong. I was trying to please everyone except for myself. And it was this realization that made me who I am. Because I decided to stop hiding the crazy. I realized that so many people hurt me through their judgement. And I decided that I would never do that to anyone. Because I could never hurt anyone the way that they hurt me. I could never be so cruel. I decided that I liked the me that I was. And anyone else that did too could then be consistently blessed with my presence and my unwavering friendship. I'm done apologizing for all the soft, and all the crazy, and even all the bad that I do and say and express. Because I'm not sorry. And I shouldn't be. And neither should anyone else.
So who am I? I am the girl that you can tell about the darkest parts of you, and in return provide you forgiveness and acceptance. I am the girl that you can always count on to be your voice when you can't find yours. I am the girl that will remind you that you are capable of all things. I am the girl that is loud and obnoxious in any environment. Honestly, I'm probably the girl that you can't stand. But I am also the girl that has accepted herself as all of these things. I am an open book, and I will not apologize for it.
And for any of you who happen to read my post: I am me, and you are you, and that is 100% okay. Keep being great. You always have been, and you always will be.
Alexa Dimino. Synonyms: Persevered. Compassionate. Altruistic. Honest. Friendly.
ReplyDeleteThis question forced me to dig deep within myself, something I don’t usually do. People know me as “Alexa or Taylor”, or “Twin!”, or “hey you! I don’t know which one you are, but blah blah blah”…Although I am so used to being approached in this manner to the point where it no longer offends me, I still sit back and think about the fact that I am my own person, in which some people think otherwise. I am my own person. (It’s so weird for me to say that because I’m so commonly grouped with another individual that sometimes I forget I’m my own person). So of course this blog question hits home a little harder, because I am sitting here having to think about what makes me, me. Sharing DNA with another human being on this Earth is pretty freaking awesome don’t get me wrong, but it gets tough. I have the same hair as someone, I have the same eyes as someone, I have the same facial structure as someone, I have the same wardrobe as someone, I have the same LIFE as someone. And although all those physical appearances show that we are identical, we are two completely different people, contrary to popular belief.
I am my own person. (Maybe if I say it enough times it will start to sound normal to me). I am not Taylor. I am Alexa. I am persevered. I don’t give up on anything or anyone. I am the most compassionate person I know. I am altruistic to an extent way beyond I thought was possible. Everything I do, every single day, I do for those around me. Honesty is my number one priority. I guarantee you that I am the most honest and trustworthy person you will ever meet. I am friendly. I make friends with insects for goodness sakes. All of these qualities make me who I am. I share my DNA with someone but I am my own person.
And its about damn time someone gave me the opportunity to say that.
This is Urban Dictionary’s definition of a girl named Taylor: “An extremely Good Looking Girl! Blonde Taylor's are the best. They normally have really nice figures and beautiful eyes. She will be really outgoing. She likes to party but not to much. Most taylor's care a lot about animals and the environment! If you get the chance to know a taylor honor that moment..love her..cherish her! She will be one of a kind!” These are what my classmates described me as: funny, outgoing, intelligent, “lit”, cool, happy, nice, and sweet. My family says I am thoughtful and generous and respectful and smart and dedicated to what I do. My sister says I am a brat, loud, and annoying. I listen to people when they describe me as a person. I like receiving the feedback, it gives me a chance to stop and think of how I portray myself to others. However, I also tend to evaluate myself BY MYSELF, with no one to my left or right telling me the kind of person I am. I set high standards for who I want to be and I believe that no one can help me achieve that; I have to want to achieve it myself. With this being said, I have come to the realization within the past few years that I am a very curious and inquisitive person. You name it, I'll ask about it. I am constantly asking questions and wondering things in order to learn. Sometimes, too many questions. I can't help the fact that by listening and learning about others, I learn a lot about life and myself. In addition to asking questions about everything I come across in my daily life, I am also an analyst. Meaning, sometimes I am quiet. And when I am quiet, I am usually analysing what is going on around me. Again, this relates back to me wanting to learn. There are many more than 1 or 2 words that make me who I am. I like to think that I am very adaptable. I change with what changes around me and I learn to live with it. Sure, things like being funny and sweet are caused by what is going on around me at that point in time. But, I believe that being inquisitive and curious is something that is a part of me. It makes me who I am. And environmental factors can’t change that.
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ReplyDeleteI am a coward.
ReplyDeleteNo matter how I see it, no matter how I put it: I am a coward. Many people see different sides to me. They say I am outgoing. They say I am funny. They say I am hardworking. But to me, all these things are just layers overlapping what I really am. I am afraid of losing friends. I am afraid of disappointing others. I am afraid that one day, it will just be me in this world, all by myself with no one by my side. I do not stand up for myself when people start to hurt me. I do not gather up the courage to defend for my friends/family. Heck, I cannot even win in a silly argument! Inside of me, I see myself coward in fear of any and everything. Whenever I want to step out and change the way I am, I always end up going back into my little corner, hiding away from everyone else. I shut out problems (basically running away from them); I ignore those problems by indulging myself into busy work; and I lock them into a cage until it reaches maximum capacity. When those problems gradually build up, I slowly lose my sense of reason and I burst into frenzy mode and once I’ve calmed down, I am back into being a coward, hiding myself away from others, always putting up a guard so no one can truly disturb me. This is why I define myself as a coward...but I guess, on a positive note, I also define myself as being driven for never giving up on my goals no matter how many times I step out and go back into my corner.
ReplyDeleteI am bubblier than tapioca balls. Anyone that has the slightest idea of who I am knows when something is wrong because I am not making others laugh. I have the tendency to brighten someone else’s day unintentionally by just being myself. I truly believe that laughing is highly contagious, and the more you laugh, the longer and better you live.
All of my friends on the tennis team appreciate my sense of humor and ability to mask my worried, sad, and angry emotions with jokes. I have made two great friends in the past two months, Mckenna and Karla. It isn’t about how long I have known a person to know that I love them and I want to be their friend forever. I think who you surround yourself with has a lot to do with who you are. Mckenna and Karla have shown me that not all friends turn their backs on you. They have always been real with me, even if the truth was not something I wanted to hear. They are definitely part of the reason why I am so bubbly. I know I always have them to rely on when in need and when not in need. They are there for me even when I feel so alone. I love making other people happy even when I am hurting inside. When they are happy, I cannot help but laugh and smile with them. I love putting a smile on their face everyday during school and tennis and outside of school.
Inside, I think I have a bigger amygdala and hippocampus than an average person. They are the two parts of the brain that are most involved with emotions. I feel about 50 different kinds of emotions throughout the day. I am more logical than emotional, however. I do not let my feelings get in the way of my rational thinking and I am very glad for that.
No man is an island? Nope, not at all. Even if he does not like people in the worst way with all of their rhetoric, he is forced to deal with them in some form or the other. This is how we were created. Families, then town, then cultures, then the world. We thrive on each other as well as love each other. Even the families up in the Alaskan bush need some kind of contact with outsiders for survival.
ReplyDeleteI do not particularly like this aspect of daily living. I like waking up, turning my music on and doing what I have to do to make life bearable. I love my family but they get on my nerves. When they talk, when they ask questions, when they walk around the house making noise….they annoy me. I am generally kind and generous inside I just feel as though with people comes all their drama and baggage. I don’t care to hear others problems because I have my own. If they need something and I can help, I do, hoping they don’t expect it all the time. Im somewhat of an invert. I enjoy being alone. I love nature. I love music and art in most forms. This is not a choice. I've always been the this way even as a child. Groups, crowd and situations where I have a chance to speak are like second nature to me. I guess you could say I'm a people person. I don’t normally get nervous in front of people. Although I have good social skills, I don't want to answer questions because I don’t like revealing the real me to everyone. I just want to do what I have to do to do what I want to do in the future. I want to get it over with and keep it going. Do not misconstrue this with cold rudeness. It's not. Im very emotional and extremely sensitive. Maybe it's a way of protecting myself. Stay away and they can't touch me. If I care for and genuinely like someone's character I am a friend for life. It's like all or nothing. I get hurt a lot from forgiving fake apologies. I give people too many chances. I am such a genuine person that it is hard for me to sense when someone is trying to use me. This is me. Weather people like me or not I will never change. I'm not a wishy-washy person. I like who I am and stay true to myself at all times.
sorry bunje, i'm not quite sure who i am right now. I'm going to have to skip this one
ReplyDeleteThe "skip" option is not an option unless I know about in advance.
DeleteHmmm what am I? No one really knows who they are until they have a defining moment in their life. Some people think I'm interesting and some people think I'm weird, or chill, etc. But I never had a defining moment in my life to tell you who I am. I'm not like Macgyver where I can say who I am or Jana and say I'm an open book. Because God hasn't shown me who I really am. A colleague of mine asked me what the definition of Jack is and I said it means donkey. Then he told me to tell him my definition of who I was and I didn't have an answer. So he made it like my job to figure out who I really am. Honestly I still don't know who Jack Markley is.
ReplyDeleteThree words i would use to describe myself, ambitious, witty, and charming.
ReplyDeleteFrom the start of my high school career, i was drawn to rowing. I know that our hobbies are not what make us who we are but i feel that a very dedicated person is the only kind of person that is going to put themselves through that kind of pain all winter long, and still want to keep going straight through to summer break. It is a great sport and an even better life experience, it showed me everyday that what our parents teach us is true, you can do anything you set your mind to. I love this sport so much because I am a very competitive person, something about a race is just incredible, the adrenaline, the feeling you get when you're neck -in-neck with your opponent and you get that burst of energy that runs through your body, But nothing compares to winning. Who doesn't love winning? Being better than someone else at something. I love it because it shows me the results of my hard work, and makes me feel that the work was not for nothing. I know that I am a hard worker, but sometimes I bite off way more than I can chew, I often find myself under the impression that i can juggle a million different things at once, when in reality, I'm no Superman.
Although my intentions are good, things never turn out the way i expect, but that's the great thing about life, close to nothing is expected, so prepare for the worst and hope for the best!
I have always wanted to be great, I never want to settle, I see myself reaching and reaching, but never slowing down to grab anything. Which is why when it comes to my future, I am horrified that one day I will wake up and think to myself “what bad decisions did I make to get myself stuck here.” and because of this I find myself overthinking every little decision I make.
All of these ingredients come together to make the coolest cat in the alley!!
"I know you so well!"
ReplyDeleteThis comment always get to me. The purpose of saying that may have been good or bad, still it always leave me questioning myself at the end of the day. Who am I? Who is Karla away from everybody? Is she still the Karla that her friends and family think she is?
My family describes me as someone unpredictable, dedicated, kind, boring (according to my mom and brother of course), stubborn, and someone who has a soft spot for kids. My friends tell me I’m annoying, quiet but feisty, smart, picky, mothering (I still don’t get what that means *eyeroll*), likable, sweet, and somebody who will be there during the ups and downs. Most of these I think are accurate, however, these descriptions of me are from the people around me, not from myself directly.
This blog made me look deeper to who really am I as a person. I am the kind of person who will appreciate the smallest things even if it doesn’t look like I do, but really I do, trust me on that. I am someone who always look for a room of improvement, no matter how nice things get. I find myself stoic; I usually keep things to myself until I cannot take it anymore and blow up. I guess I just don’t like too much drama, that blowing up part is enough for me to deal with. I am the kind of person who ends things like friendships or relationships once TRUST is broken. I will forgive you, but things will never get back the way it used to be. I am someone who will always choose family first before anything else. I am someone who will always be there when someone needs a shoulder to cry on. I will be there throughout all the fun and hard times.
Anyways, I’m always been the “quiet” one. I am that person who will sit in class and just observe my whole surrounding. I find it nice sometimes because I am able to see small moments that not everyone sees. I am able to analyze what this person or that person is really like while everybody is busy with their business. On top of that, I realized that being quiet allows others to take me seriously; sometimes I feel like people takes the things I say with substance, which is something great. However from time to time, I want to break that silence I have had. I want to start a conversation with a stranger without feeling awkward. I want to be able to express my opinions and feelings without hesitance and redness. There are times where I get frustrated with my quietness. But, I just couldn’t do it, and I don’t know why.
So if I have to put a definition on my name it would be:
Karla (N.)
Someone who may be quiet and stoic but will always appreciate everything she has; somebody who will go out of her way just to be there when you need her; someone who will always look for improvement in anything that she does.
I can look in the mirror and say to myself "Oh hey, it's me.", but that's just my appearance. I have so much more to myself then what I look like, everyone does. I'm a liar. I'm not your typical liar who lies to their so called friends and spread lies about others, to their parents, to anyone really. I lie to myself. I constantly tell myself and other people I am okay with what life is throwing at me these days. Underneath my smile is an unhappy girl. I'm not going to go into detail of how I'm so unhappy, but it definitely accompanies with the definition of myself. I've never truly been happy, so therefore part of my definition is unhappy. Besides that I'm someone who loves to see others smile, to make their day brighter. I just don't want anyone else unhappy like myself, so I spread positivity towards others. Seeing other people smile, and other people having a good day keeps me going. I am also someone who is very shy (I'm not as bad as I used to be) but I don't really talk unless spoken to. Although in 204 (my new favorite place to be), I feel comfortable enough to talk because Ms.Bunje fills the room with a sense of comfort. I'm the girl who's more reserved and who keeps to herself. Group projects are never and were never my thing. So to completely define myself is simple I'm a shy unhappy girl and there isn't much else to me anymore.
ReplyDeleteNo man is an island? Never heard of the quote. John Donne? More like John Who. This quote is true? I don’t know. I’m not feeling the philosophical-ness to dig into it. Life is really mundane. Wake up, go to school, come back, eat, do homework after productively stalling, going to sleep, repeat. It only changes as you go into the next level of age where school would change to work when you are an adult. Do people know me? To some degree. They might have heard of my name somewhere. I am an asian. An asian of Nepalese origin. What else do people know about me? It varies from whoever is asked. Some people sees me as this while others sees me as that. People have many layers to who they really are. They may act certain ways depending on who they are talking to. No one knows the deepest layer of others or themselves. What would be the definition of Bobi? There’s one definition which I wouldn’t use to define me although the sensitive part does work. My definition of Bobi is a guy who tries to act bobis. In all honesty, I really do not know how to describe myself. Words are just words. Whether we choose to believe what they mean is true or not, it is best not to describe ourselves. The answer is not always pretty.
ReplyDeleteI've never been one to make myself vulnerable on a public forum like this... It feels weird. Despite that though it seems this is the first time I have ever had to for a grade so I guess I'll just have to deal with it. Anyway... Like I just said I am terribly uncomfortable with sharing things about myself, like many people of my age, and so typically the only people who know me well are those who are extremely close to me or those who've managed to goad me into sharing my life story (well done Ms. Bunje). Things I have noticed about myself that i'd put into a definition about me would first and foremost be that I am a sad mix of the worst parts of romanticism and cynicism, which might sound contradictory but that's the unfortunate truth of it, one side of me thinking "We could all be good to one another and change the world for the better!" while the other side of me broods and sulks going "Not a single person wants to nor cares about doing good for anyone but themselves." Aside from the bizarre and polarizing mindsets I've also noticed that there is a side of me that loves bashing on ME, and I've noticed that I should change that but I've noticed that I haven't, before I hear about how "These voices of self-criticism are good, they help us to improve where we notice our failures!" I know that! I know that those thoughts are extremely helpful and that realizing shortcomings and making up for them are the best way to improve upon yourself, but it's not that, it's me being hard on myself just for the sake of being hard on myself and I don't get why I do it cause all it does is get me down and I should stop, again... I know, but you can't quite change the subconscious so i'm stuck here dealing with me bullying myself thinking "Why settle with second best when you could just give up and not have to deal with the disappointment of NEVER being at the top." I wish I could say there were more cheerful things to describe me but thinking back on them now I doubt they could be considered part of me. Really they're just things that I do not what I am. (Wow... reading this at the end makes me feel like I'm kind of a bummer)
ReplyDeleteEveryone is a product of their environment in some way or another, but that is not what defines them. I am the living description of that feeling you got as a kid when you looked down stairs on Christmas morning to see gifts under the tree. I can some me up in three words that others sum themselves up in, but my three words mean something different then the way someone else may use them. I am living, loving, and receiving. I could write a paragraph on what I mean by each of those three words, but instead I will leave that on you to look at me and see what I mean. Just know that for each of those three words I have three meanings for each of them. But anyway, I am me. I am not characterized in a way like no other, for the simple fact that I am no one besides myself. The true me is someone people in my daily life may not see, the only ones who have seen me for who I am, is my family, but even they haven’t even seen the whole me. Sometimes I feel like I live a double life (which I do), because I show myself in a way that isn’t truly me. I am a fraud, and product of modern culture. I put on a robe that perceives myself as something I’m not, but something I wish I could be depending on the current situation taking place in my life. That person I wish I could be is not me, nor who I am intended to be. I am okay with that and am proud of who I am. Although sometimes it may seem like I’m putting on a show for those around me, I blame that on the time and place in which I live. I accept that on the outside I seem like a immature clown (which I am). On the outside I may be labeled Samuel David Govern a 17 year old boy, but on the inside I label myself more things than that that can be summed up by a title.
ReplyDeleteI am enigma at its peek.Nobody can understand me I can't even understand me.Honestly, I don't feel as though people are meant to be understood.Because, once you have an understanding of who you THINK you are you get comfortable and you settle.People say oh I have a passion for art but, I could never be an artist because, the world thinks I'm only a singer.An by taking a new path people think it confuses their portrayed image instead of just doing what makes them happy.Usually people aren't even their self they are the person that society accepts.They defer from all the weird stuff that interests to be normal.Well I would say I have a dual personality I have the me that the world can see.An also, the me that only people I am close to will see.I'm fine with that though people aren't supposed to know my deepest thoughts or my struggles.I would like to say I'm the face of overcoming adversity.People automatically assume that you haven't been through any hardships because, you don't wear your problems on your face.Because, I don't cry over spilled milk doesn't mean that I'm not hurt about something.By why be hurt over something that you can't change.Perseverance is key yes, I go to work right after I get home from school.An come home at 10 o'clock then, have to face homework and assignments back to back.Depriving myself of sleep not because, I want to because, I have to.I never had a parent over my shoulder "Like do good in school" or "Do your homework!". I motivated myself I don't complain about putting alot on myself because, if I don't invest in my future and dreams nobody else will.I'm not looking for any hand outs to be successful.So, when I get to where I'm going I will say I did it on my own and with the help of genuine people who wanted to see me do good.Alot of people told me I wouldn't be shit but, I used that as negative energy to feed off.Without it I wouldn't be the person I am today.People have influenced me so much in a negative way.I used to be a very loving person and wore my heart on my sleeve.Not, to say that I know longer am but, I noticed that people to that as a weakness.Its hard to stomach that people will fuck over a good person.Genuine is a word that would definitely be in my definition because, I'd do things for people that people would never do the same for me.I give to people without looking for anything in return.I listen to people problems because, I actually care not because, I feel obligated to.An, I will always remain humble in a sense that even if I had everything I ever dreamed of I would I know I could lose it all and be right back to square 1.
ReplyDeleteI am not the person that everyone thinks I am. For in real life I come off as kinda an asshole. No lie. But I can be very caring as well. I might seem outgoing. But I promise no one knows who I am. Now I enjoy my life. And the way I feel inside is a feeling that I control what happens. Not others. You cant take what other people say about you and just say that they are wrong. Even if you know that there wrong you let it happen and wait for someone else to describe you. Things change. People change. Feelings change too. Just enjoy life with the way people label you. You cant change the way that they feel you or how they perceive you. So you enjoy it and live life how you want to live it. But no one will ever know who I am. Thats how it will stay. Im defined as "disguised". I will stay that way because you can never show your real self in front of anyone. Because nobody can be trusted. If I cut you off chances are, your the one who gave me the scissors. Don't worry, you were not trusted anyway.
ReplyDeleteI am unsolved. All of the components of my life sort of piece together in spontaneity, but they never fit perfectly. I'm truly indecisive and things that happen to me never get a reoccurring reaction. I can't decide for myself how I might react to the words or actions of someone else, but I know the common solution I have to all of them when they effect my in any way: writing, music, and art. I am worrisome, overly concerned with my future and how I can better direct it. I'm not going to pretend I know anything about who I am because I'm still growing into the women I'll become. I am a work in progress, I am ambiguity in the form of a 16 year old girl. I am an ellipsis that bridges between my thoughts, my actions, my beliefs, and everything about myself. I wish I could be more clear sometimes, more verbal, more expressive, but I guess those external things are made up internally and more often expressed in some form of art. I am a mood shifter, vibing off the way the day unfolds and how smooth it runs. I hate how people can flip a good day to a bad one in seconds. I'm temperamental, but I'm great at disguising it until a nerve is hit. I am ambitious, because I'm usually wanting the impossible, but at the same time I'm okay with what I'm given. I'm learning new things about who I am as the days go on so...I can't really give a straight answer as to what defines Aja. But these are some things I know for certain.
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ReplyDeleten.- A female wanderer. A woman or girl who travels the world or her country in search of meaning, or else engaging in artistic pursuits.
I, Justice Shaynice Ross am a wanderess.I hate being in the same place; I have to travel the world. I’m always somewhere even if I’m in my bedroom I’m still somewhere lost in my head. Lost in a book picturing what is going, imaging myself in the characters shoes.
I love art. I love to go to the art museums. I can stay there for hours and stare at a piece of artwork regardless if it’s a painting or a sculpture. I love to analyze it and determine what does this mean? What was the artist emotion or purpose behind this? However, I also love the art in people. I constantly want to meet new people. I want to find out who they are and why we have crossed paths. This makes me passionate about EVERYONE and EVERYTHING.
I have sat here and stared at my computer for a while thinking about who I really am. I don't know why it's so hard for me to talk about myself, but it is. I would describe myself as a very curious and quiet person. I always pay attention to details and know that not everything is as it seems. I know that not everything people tell you is true, so I often question many things that I see and wonder why and how these things are happening. I like to hear what other people say about different things because I think it's very interesting to see different perspectives on different topics. For a definition, I really can't determine one. I don't think people have definitions because there are so many things that makes us all different and they wouldn't all fit in one sentence. It's too hard to give myself an actual definition because I would be sitting here for way too long trying to decide, so I will leave it at the things I mentioned.
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ReplyDeleteThis question was way harder than I thought it would be but after a while I figured out who I am. I am a thoughtful but average person. One thing that defines me as a person is just being a nice guy. I was grateful enough to take this in from the people around me. If I can make someone else's day better by doing something for them I will. I pride myself in doing this because it makes me a happier person and it helps me sometimes get through days that stink. I am still an average person though. If I had to come up with a definition for myself it would say "that plain old kid”. Honestly I could care less about being an average person because it's how I act that defines me as a person that makes me above average to others. I have no true amazing things about me and that's okay as long as I’m myself and people can respect me that way.
ReplyDeleteI can go on and on and explain who I am as a person, but ONE word to describe me is laid back. I feel as though that I can be a very chill person. For the most part I stay to myself. Always being around a crowd of people was never my thing. I was never the type of person that really needed anyone. I feel as though staying to yourself is the best way to go. It prevents so many conflicts. Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy going out and doing things when I get the chance, but it was never a priority nor something that I stressed. I’d honestly rather sit in the house and chill, rather than go out most of the time. I associate without a lot of people, but I pick very wisely on who I call my friends. There’s a lot of people who would probably call me their friend, but I would never call them mine (nothing personal) … I feel as though that I am this way because of my past experiences. Beings though that when I was a little younger, having so many friends and doing something every weekend was absolutely a MUST. After facing so many conflicts in the past, my thoughts changed a lot since. If I had to come up with a definition for “Kyla” it would be “Independent and relaxed” due to the fact that I don’t really depend on anyone anymore.
ReplyDeleteI am gonna have to pass on this one Mrs Bunje, took me a long time to think real hard but I honestly do not know who I am yet.
ReplyDeleteThe one free "pass" you get on the blog need to be requested before the blog is due, and it needs to be done in person.
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ReplyDeleteWho am I and want I am is a man who analyzes and adapts to his surroundings. I have acquired certain talents to the point my epithet should be "The man with many talents." Adaptation which is an example of how I can fit through this world with no problems and unite with everyone peacefully. It has come to a point that this ability has made me question who I am truly. I have adapted to people around me which alters the way I act and I myself don’t know who the real Andy is as a side effect of it. For example (high school typical stereotypes) I have friends of different criterias and schemas. Adaptation made it possible for me and because of it I’m friends with the geniuses, the nerds, the athletes, the weirdos, the ghetto people, the people that consider themselves normal, the high spirited etc. Basically when I’m with a certain group I automatically act similar to them and fit perfectly with them without looking like the odd one out. In my perspective adaptation is the key to life. If we are able to adapt to our surroundings then we are able to navigate through our lives, obstacles and other circumstances like a compass leading a camper. Even Robert Shea agrees with me by his quote which claims that “Individuals who cultivate a variety of skills seem brighter, more energetic and more adaptable than those who know how to do one thing only.” And I agree with him each day I acquire a new set of skills which in return makes me brighter and brighter like the stars above us. Other than adaptation, I have a vast imagination which helps in conjunction with creativity. I see things in a creative way that others don’t see. For instance when someone sees crumbled piece of paper they automatically thinks is junk. Yes that is the case but for me I look at it and transform it into what it looks like in my head like maybe a crane, a penguin, a flower etc. In my mind every living and nonliving thing (even junk) can be made into something beautiful. Next is what each everyone has deep inside them which is a dark side/ cynical soul.(Like they say everyone or everything are two faces of a coin). That side of me comes out when my happiness have been driven down the sand. The description of it is almost like a wild animal or a barbaric warrior just like the meaning of my name.Then there is the other factor/ package that comes along with my cynical soul which is manipulation which I use to get myself out of sticky situations and let the pawns take the heat. ( Already explain this “The puppeteer gets to sit high and mighty and enjoys the show while the pawns are taking the hits/ human shield.) I basically use it as a source of entertainment when I feel down. It truly benefits me.( Just kidding that is inhuman ). To sum it up, I technically embody a river and a sponge. I go with the flow. If something happens, it happened for a reason and along the way I soak up the information and transform it into something new which will benefit everyone around me even me. ( For example: something so cynical, I’ll be able to transform it into a form of a joke which will lead to happiness) Overall I’ve attained these skills by learning from past experiences and others. Slowly but surely all of those encounters with the people I’ve met from there and now will help me understand who I am. I may be someone whom brings creativity to the world, or the one who knows how to get along with people, or the one who wants to make everyone happy etc. Who knows? But along the way I will definitely gain my answer.
I am a vapor in the wind, a wave tossed in the ocean. I am a human being that lives on this blue and green earth with 6 billion other people. And out of all those people, there isn’t one just like me. I am the only Matthew Richard Carter on this Planet and in the universe. I am my own person, my own individual. NO one thinks like me. No ones mind operates like mind does. I am what I am. I am a thinker who is not told how to think. I am a caregiver that will care for you if you need assistance. I am a listener and will listen to what you have to say. I am a hard worker and will work for the things I want. I will always try to do what is right. I will always give everything my all. I am forgiving. But on top of all of that, I am not perfect. I am a sinner. I still have lots to work on as do we all. But I will strive to become a better me everyday that I breath.
ReplyDeleteI don’t like being around negative environments and people. I feel uncomfortable around people who hate everything then that puts me in a negative state of mind and I don’t like that. I would rather be in a positive environment where I can be happy. But regardless of what environment I am in, I tend to see the beauty in everyone. I believe everyone is unique and beautiful in their own way. I don’t know why but that’s just the way I feel about people. But then again that’s how I am with everything, really. If you put me out in the middle of nowhere, I am 99% sure that I will probably find something intricate and lovely about where I am. If it’s an old run down trailer park where vacancy is the synonym, I’ll probably comment something like “Wow look at how the trees are growing so that it’s actually in the trailer, isn’t nature beautiful?” or something along the lines of that. But it’s who I am. I am infatuated with anything that has to do with animals and nature like flowers, trees etc. Ever since I was a kid, my parents have told me I find the good in anything/everyone and I gave everyone a chance. I accept people for who they are and never looked back. I’m never changing that.
ReplyDeleteWith me being so kind and welcoming to others, I have to watch so people don’t take advantage of me. I sometimes find myself getting treated like poop (aka what my whole OP was about) and I’m at a point in my life where I’m done with the negativity. I’ve realized that I don’t need anyone in my life to drag me down. It’s bad enough I do it to myself, I don’t need anyone adding on to it. I don’t like conflict; I don’t like being the center of attention, I like to keep it to myself and figure things out on my own. I don’t want to be a bother to anyone. I am a very fragile person, my mental state is nowhere near where it should be so if anyone were to say even the slightest offensive thing to me or if I feel like something is off/wrong, chances are I’m probably paranoid and freaking out.
So if you were to find my name in the dictionary, this would be my definition:
CeCelia Holeschak (noun)
Small, compassionate child who sees nothing but good and is too naïve to see the evil. Most likely admiring flowers, dogs and math problems. Possibly, but not likely, looking at aesthetically pleasing boys.
Kaitlyn Scardino- an artistic, creative, girl who is able to be whoever you need. One thing I find about myself is I am not one singular thing, there is not one thing to describe me because I am constantly changing. I learn things, I change my looks, I change my attitude. One thing I like about myself is that I feel like I am able to change myself depending on who I'm around, which can be hard when I'm in a giant group of diverse people. Usually I find myself quiet at first and getting to know whoever stands before me, then without knowing it I will start to mimic their actions. I act very different around my very different friends. If I had to describe myself as a shape I would say an octagon because I have so many different sides. For the sake of understanding lets refer to my different ways of acting around people as characters. At the end of the day when I am left alone with my head I find I'm almost just a vessel for these characters. I am no one singular person. When I'm alone and it's just me I find that I don't really think often. This might sound weird but I see my body as a cavity to hold me inside. My body is nothing more than a shell which is why it is so easy for me to accept myself and love the way I look, because I don't see my external body as me. Now that I'm thinking about it, when I actually look for who I am I can't find anything. I feel like my head is one of those haunted walks where like theres a billion fog machines and I can't see anything. I always saw myself as someone who likes to be alone but now that I'm looking at it I find that I rely on people to make up myself. Without daily interactions with people making me who I am I would be lost, I wouldn't be anything. This isn't really alarming because I always knew I had found EXACTLY who I was but I definitely have an idea. I guess who I am depends on the person who is asking me.
ReplyDeleteI literally have no idea who I am. As far as I know, I'm just a 16 year old boy that loves wrestling and changes his personality up every now and then. For a while I was "Cameron, that kid that misses his ex girlfriend." Before that I was "Cammy, the fat kid that all the girls love and friendzone." Now I'm Cam. I mean, I'm just Cam. People from twitter know me as Mr.Happy but, I'm just waiting for whatever title I receive next.
ReplyDeleteCam, you need to put more thought into what you say.
DeleteI really feel as if enough hasn’t happened in my life to answer this question. You could question that, but that routine you mentioned is what happens in my everyday life about 98% of the time. And I really thought about his question for a good two days (give or take a few hours), and I really had no legitimate answer. There is usually deciding factors that make someone figure out who they are and I have never really had many experiences in general much less any that stick out. Maybe one day I will be able to answer this question in it’s entirety, but for now, I have time.
ReplyDeleteIt isn't any amount of time that defines you. Ultimately, to answer this question, all you needed to do was think about what you like, why you like it and what you think that says about you. Your response shows no thought into the question.
DeleteI am a welcomer. I welcome people into my life even if they don’t deserve to be in my life. I am always the one to give others a helping hand. I put everyone else’s wants and needs before my own. I’m not really sure if that’s a good quality or a bad one? I am also very honest with myself. I try not to be in denial about anything and I don’t try to fix how I am. I am content with the person I am and would never change myself. I know that I’m supposed love myself before anything else, but I can’t help myself. I love myself more because of who I am, and the person I am is the person that puts everything before themselves. I like being the helping hand, or shoulder to cry on, or the go to person to rant to. I like that I make others feel comfortable to allow me into their lives. So I guess I could say that I not only welcome people into my life, but they also welcome me into their lives. I’m like a blanket because I’m comforting. If I were to ask anybody what they thought of me, they would all describe me either sweet, caring, nice, or trustworthy, and those are all comforting traits. I love myself because I love who I am. Even if the person I am is loving others before loving myself.
ReplyDeleteAnother excellent question Mrs. Bunje! Too excellent in fact. I'll have you know I am a stellar actor, a world class performer, and a magnificent deceiver as well. I always keep important information to myself, and rarely give out genuine information. Anytime someone figures out anything about me, it feels as though I, as a masterful manipulator, have lost a valuable card in my hand of life. This can be seen in many things, like two truths and a lie, or games where you have to guess who someone is after writing something down. The only "secrets" you will get from being friends with me is superficial, though people rarely ask, so it is not hard to deflect or lie. I usually just listen to everyone else, and gather valuable data from them. I won't spill any secrets though, so there is nothing to fear. Accounting for all this, I highly doubt anyone really knows me, beyond the light stuff, like the jokes I make, the way I talk, and how I will react to certain things. However, sometimes those things do not really tell the truth. You know I love titles. If I had to give myself a definition, it would probably be Drake, I mean Tobi: Secretive, Elated, and Unlimited. We already know why I'm secretive. I am a ninja from the Land of Fire. I'm always happy, and it is like I have a beacon of light in my soul. It doesn't matter how dark and gloomy the times get. It doesn't matter if the future looks bleak. In the brightest day, and the blackest night, blah blah blah, you can look to me, and share my light. Yeah I like that. The best part is, I can shine forever. Almost everyday, I feel as though I could go on forever, and the days I don't it is because I am sick. I may complain about work, but in reality I relish the challenge. I'm ready to keep fighting on, and be the very best, that no one ever was! If I had to picture myself as a hero, it would be one who stands before everyone else, never having to walk over the body of his ally because he leads the way. A hero who could take down the mightiest of foes in one punch. That image is what keeps me going in the endless night. I sound pretty cool in my own head. 420blzit
ReplyDeleteI Alex Harley am a somewhat loving, sarcastic, annoying, funny, and helpful person, well that's what I believe I am. Honestly I kind of have an idea of who I think I am but you change throughout your life so I don't know if I'm like these traits I named or not, the people around me in my life would have to be the judge of that. People may see me as negative because of the way I talk about things but truth be told that just the sarcastic asshole of me and there's nothing I can do about that. But as the "grown ass man" I claim to be I still haven't actually found myself personality and I think that's alright because honestly who knows who they are at this young of an age, they might have ideas but they'll never know for sure until they hit their adult age and realize who they are as a person and inside. The only word that I can really say fits for me is unknown because I don't know really anything about myself yet but I'm waiting to be found.
ReplyDeleteNicole- Someone who is constantly second guessing herself in every step she makes.
ReplyDeleteI am someone who is constantly getting hurt and is forced to live with serious trust issues for other people. I’ve been cheated on by someone I thought I loved, i’ve had at least 100 people lie to me and break promises. And the worst to happen is when you trust someone with a secret and they tell everyone about it. I am someone who can be trusted but cannot trust. I am someone who gives her all when she can, but never gets it in return. Nicole is a person that wants to trust, but can’t. I don’t know who I am because I am constantly changing. Who I am is influenced by what other people do to me. As far as I am concerned, at this moment, I am someone who can’t trust, can barely love, and wants nothing more but to be happy.
Hey, I'm a brain. We all are really, just using meat-suits to move around and accomplish means for survival and reproduction. However, I am my brain, and you are yours, we are not perfectly identical (not even twins). On the inside, we are made up of cells and DNA (learned that in freshman biology!) which determines some miscellaneous things about us and our bodies, however not exactly who we are because of the influence of Nature and Nurture (biology again!). This is important because we have developed an idea that we have to identify ourselves to our own minds and others'. To define myself would be the same as everyone else, the Brain named itself the Brain and that's what we are; a race of brains that have evolved to suit their needs. So, ultimately, how do I define myself? The same as any other person taking this blog question extremely literally.
ReplyDeleteYou may want to rethink the snarkiness of this response.
DeleteThe problem with this post is that traits and hobbies define me. Without traits, a person is just a hollow shell. What makes me me is dictated by my actions so without any of these defining characteristics I cannot be defined. A definition of me would have to include sports, video games, and pizza because those things make up ¾ of who I am as a person. My definition would also include my love for learning (not like school though) as well as some dark humor. Without these traits, I wouldn’t be me. I want these words to define me, for people to think of me as an athlete, or a gamer, or any one of the qualities I mentioned before. I am who I am and I would never change that.
ReplyDeleteI love to learn, to be fair (even if I don’t show it externally), to make a positive impact, and to take naps. I might not be nice all the time, funny, or confident, but I’m happy when I know I made a difference. I’m a little swamped with the projects that I put on myself, but I love when the things I make make other people happy. This is on a small scale, but to see someone crack a smile when I hand them a hat that I worked hard on to knit just makes my day.
ReplyDeleteI was talking about this with my friend the other day, but I enjoy being in a conversation with people who might be considered annoying. Yeah, it’s mostly a one-sided conversation, but they’re happy talking about themselves or whatever they want and I don’t have a problem with this nonstop chatter because you can learn a lot about them/the subject. I read just about anything as long as it’s not a complex subject and I have enough time. I just like to be informed and spread the truth. Too bad I can’t remember anything that I learn. Or else, I would be amazing if I did academic team.
I’ve said before that I don’t like drama. I like to hear all sides of the story before I make a judgement. Honestly though, I’m pretty gullible, so I have to work on questioning things first before I start telling other people about it. I don’t like to judge people. Seriously. I can’t describe what my own traits are, so how can you expect me to know what type of people my friends are. I look at personality as if it’s not a set entity that’ll stay the same for your whole life. People can really change. That’s why I try to be as fair as possible and give everyone a chance.
I also like taking naps. It’s the only way I’ll ever be able to catch up on some of my sleep.
If life was a giant story, I would just be one of the forgettable background characters that are always there, but never really noticed. I am the boring character that can not continue a conversation or even start one with other people. It would just be an awkward silence between the person I tried to socialize with. Whenever I try to talk or say something to a group, no one hears me. For instance, whenever I am in a group project, my voice is usually never heard and my ideas are never contributed to the final project. Inside, there is a persona of me that wants to shout the ideas that will never be heard.
ReplyDeleteMy life as the background character means that I am not noticed by other people or acknowledged by them; those people just continue talking about private stuff right in front of me. Drama, relationships, or “bloody days” are the type of private conversations that I always overhear even though I do not want to take part in this kind of things. After my friends or random strangers finish their private conversation, they just realized that I was in the room, probably thinking, “was he always there?”
Preston Phommathep is an antisocial background character who only interacts on the computer.
Well, since everyone is stating their name in this blog, here I go: My name is Brittany Rose Cecelia Maderia. Now with that being said, my name means nothing. I mean, I could be called Barbara and I would still be the same person. Furthermore, have you ever heard that if you try to tickle yourself it won’t work as well as if someone else tickles you? Also, if you try to pinch yourself, it doesn’t hurt as much as if someone else tries to pinch you? Well, this is like examining yourself. So, in order to answer this question I’m going to talk in the 3rd person, but in the mindset of 1st person. Too confusing? Just try to follow.
ReplyDeleteBrittany is too delicate for life. If you say one little thing that makes her feel upset, she will crumble apart. If someone breaks her heart, she will cry in bed for 3 days and not eat or talk for the whole duration she is hurting. This is because she can’t take it. She’s too weak. She’s too fragile. She’s too nice. She can’t yell at anybody, she forgives somebody in one second. Grudges? She doesn’t know what that is. She’s too easy to manipulate and take advantage of. She has anxiety, she can’t take stress or drama for too long. She will break down and is a ticking mental breakdown bomb. She gets scared too easily, she needs to hold someone’s hand and have someone protect and stick up for her. She needs someone to hold her and to comfort her when she’s blue. She needs someone to love her because she’s not strong enough to love herself. Someone to tell her how great she is, because she doesn’t see the good in herself. But she hides behind a smile, because she can’t handle her true self.
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ReplyDeleteIn all honesty, It's difficult to describe who I am without using labels and traits. Considering the fact that no one (even me at times) knows who I am I couldn't reach out for help. Sure I may do the same things everyday but I've never sat down and though who I was. The only way I can really describe myself is to compare myself to a bandage. To all the bio-med kids reading this, no I'm not a medical intervention. What I go through is somewhat similar to what a bandage goes through. Physically no. I don't bind to people and soak up their blood. I mean metaphorically. One way I can describe myself as a bandage is this: when you're bleeding and put a bandage on, it holds in all your blood. I guess you can compare my emotions and me to this. When I get hurt and am struggling emotionally I don't release my pain but keep it held in. But when a bandage soaks up too much blood, it can't soak up anymore and eventually falls off. When I hold in my emotions and it builds up I can't hold it in anymore and break down. Another way you can really compare me to a bandage is when I'm with my friends. I firmly believe that people use me for their own benefits. That people only know me because they need something for me. Taking this back to the bandage, you only ever need a bandage whenever you have a cut or you're bleeding. You never really need a bandage at any other point. I can go on and on about how I compare to a bandage but it'll be all repetitive. But the thing is there's still so much about myself I don't know. I'm only 16 and if I live to 80 I still got a solid 64 years before I kick the bucket. I still have 64 years to learn who I truly am inside. Especially since I suppressed my real thoughts and emotions for 16 years now. If I were to define myself it'd be this: Benjamin Pham: Someone who still has lots to learn about the world and about himself.
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ReplyDeleteI have deliberated over this question for the past three days, and honestly, I do not have a direct answer to this. Ruling out all the labels I have for myself, my interests, and my abilities, I'm not entirely sure of who I am just yet as I still am trying to find myself, which I have struggled with in the past with being myself and not conforming with the rest of society. However, I will say what I do know about me.
ReplyDeleteWhen people hear my name, the first traits about me that comes to mind is that I am shy, very quiet, and a very kind, sweet and smart person. Many even have speculations whether I even talk at all (so annoying), and I am sometimes underestimated because of this. I would be lying if I said that I do not have these traits, but I guess that I cannot help it. If I am in an environment where I am quiet, I am a person who thinks excessively to myself whether it would be my thoughts on something that I do not want to say out loud or one of my favorite songs stuck in my head (hence the anonymous quote, "Quiet people have the loudest minds"). I tend to change myself depending on who I talk to. I am observant and notice and hear conversations that others think I do not know about. If I am upset, I tend to try and keep it to myself and force myself to deal with it. I know that I am a helpful person who is willing to help anyone who does not understand something that I do or support them if they are struggling with an issue. I smile very often and laugh about things I am intrigued by, acting friendly, and I still act childish sometimes though I am 16. I despise negative environments and negative people, and that makes me choleric. I have ambition. I work hard for something I love and want, and I receive its reward, pushing myself to persevere. I love enjoying myself and hearing or saying funny remarks with the ones I'm closest with. Most of all, I am grateful. I appreciate everyone, my life, amazing hardworking people, and everything I am fortunate to have that most take for granted.
These are some of the traits I am known to have, but as for who I am, I still have more to learn about myself which comes with time, so I will not put an exact definition on myself just yet.
Well i just posted a blog and it seems to have glitched out but lets try again. TAKE 2
ReplyDeleteIf i had to break myself down to the core of who I am, I would have to say that I am a very loving, happy and genuine guy. I tend to show love when I see fit. Growing up in a family full of girls, it has made me understand the mindset of them and how they feel, as well as how to make them feel better.... Sometimes... I am also a happy person. A sentence/quote that i live by is "You can not change what has already happened, but you can change the way you look at that event." To me that quote basically says "Hey you may have screwed up, but sitting back and crying about it wont fix it or move you in a better direction so you might as well look at it in a positive way". I am also a genuine person. I have only ever once done something to intentionally hurt their feelings and that was way back in the 5th grade, but other than that I never really saw a point in bullying or picking on someone, because it does nothing except bring someone down. At the end of the day i'm just another loving kind young man who appreciates everything that is thrown his way.
The worst decision I have ever made was my extreme vulnerability in the eighth grade. I know that this is vague and there is a specific situations that ties directly with this regret but to avoid the specific details and names of those people, it is easiest if I just say the overall reason behind my regret. I had a huge personality, not as muted and reserved as I am now. I would not be afraid to speak out and show every side of me, to my “friends” to my peers, to anybody. I am still the same person but just a little bit more conscious, a little bit more cautious to show people the sides of me that people close to me see on the daily basis. Well in the eighth grade I didn’t hide my charisma, I grew a large group of friends and found myself tied in so much drama within the circle, and ultimately I lost two of my closest friends. It wasn’t worth my trust, it wasn’t worth feeling stupid and vulnerable for. Trusting in people is something I have a hard time doing now. I don’t call anyone! My best friends I simply have friends and the close ones are good friends, and I am so careful with the things I say and the people I talk to because I never know who I can trust. I understand that everyone will experience back stabbing, and countless reasons to not trust a person. But without knowing, the lack of trust I felt in the people I loved turned me into a reclusive being, I don't talk much to people because I don’t aspire serious relationships, I am too easily hurt by the actions of other people. It affects me way more than it probably should. I laugh at the fact that people say they’ve never heard me speak before, because if you know me personally I never shut up. But now I am like ice, easy to melt and discover the true substance, but hard on the surface, I only ever feel okay with being vulnerable in my art, it’s become a safe haven for my personality to be expressed since talking to people is not an option. I am sure I will get over myself eventually, I will meet new people who will know nothing about me, not even my name and I will have no choice but to open up if only a little bit, and be willing to be vulnerable. No matter how much it may hurt me in the long run.
ReplyDeleteIf you ask a group of people who I am I can guarantee you all their answers will be different. I'm someone's daughter. Someone's sister. Someone's best friend. These are all labels we give each other. If you ask me who I am I'll just list a bunch of traits. All labels and traits aside I am a lost soul. I'm wandering around this world trying to find out how I fit in it. I bounce from place to place never finding one to call home. I float through life trying not to get attached to things. I live in my head. Only way to know who I am is to understand the world inside my head. The world I've spent years building. The world where my demons lurk in the shadows and my dreams are on full display. You have to walk down my hall of failures and triumphs and take a left into the hallway full of all my stupid ideas. The door to the right of that should be filled with mermaids and all my favorite fictional characters. I guess what I'm trying to say is that nobody really knows me. They only know parts of me. The parts I let them see. And some of those parts are forever lost. “I am a lost boy from Neverland……” * Moonwalks away while Lost Boy pours from the speakers*
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